Confessions of an observant Bride....

I see you.

You think I am just your cashier, that I am mindlessly scanning your items and bagging them like I did the person before you.

But, I see you.

I noticed when you looked around before placing your items on the belt, how you laid things on top of the item you hoped no one noticed...you hoped I wouldn't notice.

I noticed you never met my eyes, how your smile wasn't genuine. I saw the slight tremble of your hand as you handed your cash over. Cash to pay for your purchase. Cash to pay for your morning after pill.

I see you.

The dirty, and tattered clothes a size too small. I see your hair hasn't been brushed, and your nails haven't been cleaned. I  notice how you chatter non stop as though I am the first person to speak a kind word to you all day. I noticed when your guardian told you to shut up, how you shrank into the cart as though you thought you may be able to disappear. How the light dimmed a little in your eyes and you no longer wanted to chat.

I see you.

I see you when you slowly place your items in my hands and I can see your mind working quickly. You place the diapers, wipes, and baby food first knowing those are the items that are for your little ones. I see you shyly swipe your card praying no one notices you had to use "government money" to help feed your growing family. I heard you when you said you wouldn't be getting those last three food items.....I understood the real reason why. I tried to communicate with my eyes that I understood....but you refused to meet mine.

I see you.

He sees you too.

 "You always think I'm somewhere on a mountain top
But never think behind bars
You'd be amazed the places that I'd go to be with you
Where you are

So forget what you've heard
What you think that you know
There's a lot about me
That's never been told

I'm more than you dreamed
More than you understand
Your days and your times
Were destined for our dance
I catch all your tears
Burn your name on my heart
Be still and trust my plan
I'm more than you think I am
More than you think I am

Rumor has it there's a gavel in my hand
I'm only here to condemn
But let me tell you secrets you would've never known
I think of you as my best friend

So much has been said
Even done in my name
But I'm showing you now
Who I really am

I'm more than you dreamed
More than you understand
Your days and your times
Were destined for our dance
I catch all your tears
Burn your name on my heart
Be still and trust my plan
I'm more than you think I am
More than you think I am

Let me open your eyes to see the heart of me, differently
Come closer than you've ever been
Let me in like never before
Bring me every broken part
The wounds and scars of who you are
And hide in me and you will see

I'm more than you dreamed
More than you understand
Your days and your times
Were destined for our dance
I catch all your tears
Burn your name on my heart
Be still and trust my plan
I'm more than you think I am"
MORE THAN YOU THINK I AM
Danny Gokey