Imagine your the lady in the store desperatley trying to get that associates attention, one flutters past and before you even think to get the words out they are gone in a flash of blue. "Excuuuuuussee" the words die on your lips as another scurries past too hurried to bother with the random customer blocking the overly crowded aisle. "Do you mind helping me?" You ask another, who disappears never to be seen again promising you the desired help in just a moment. You begin to think why you ever shop here if no one cares enough to spend a moment meeting your needs, or at least pointing you in the right direction so you can meet them yourself. The truth is they are just to busy to help, or are too busy helping another, or are rushed to meet anothers needs or wants.
Sometimes life gets busy.........
To be honest i think the word busy may be an understatement
I have a pile of dirty dishes in my once empty sink, my used to be clean office space is now littered with half empty boxes full of things that go here, there, and im pretty sure over there. My laundry is multiplying and im not sure i remember the last time i washed my hair.....hmmm
Im tired and exhausted and honestly i just want a break, for my bills to be paid while i sit sipping a large mocha frappe from mcdonalds with extra whipped cream cause im sure that will solve the worlds problems, at least mine momentarily.
But in the midst of all this busy I have become desperate and searching, trying to find ways to fill those empty spaces that once seemed overflowing.
I came across a song by Royal Tailor called "Hold me together" and the chorus speaks so profoundly to where I am right now:
Can you hold me together
Can your love reach down this far
Can you hold me together
Cause without You holding my heart
I'm falling apart
In the midst of all this "busy" my Heavenly Father continually finds ways to "hold me together" to remind me that His love is daily reaching out for me. That He is holding my heart within His gracious loving Daddy hands and that He will get me through whatever lies ahead.
It has been amazing to me that usually when my life gets so caught up in the crazy the Lord takes a back seat however through this insane journey of mine this time around I find it so overwhelmingly sweet to know that more and more I find myself dwelling on my God, my Jesus, my Savior. That through out my days I am reminded countless times of His unfailing faithfulness and unconditional love for me in spite of myself. I find myself yearning and asking the Lord to make me fall more in love with HIM! I love that the Lord has brought me to this point, in this moment because it trully has been the sweetest of times yet.
There are quite a few new journeys ahead of us and your prayers are desperately welcomed as we begin Grants final year here at Oak Hills and our final year here in Minnesota! This for sure will be the most growing and stretching of them yet and im soooo overly excited to see all that my Awesome Father has in store for us. I will try to write more often as I know I will have much to share in the coming months, especially with Fall right around the corner! Its my favorite time of year and the Lord always shows me new things to dwell on and share!
Dont be to busy that you forget to remember just how AWESOME our God truly is. Take a few moments to dwell on the ways He has blessed you lately. Praying for you sweet friend :)
