Lord im leaving....im getting ready to say good bye to everything i have really ever known and quite frankly im scared out of my mind.
I just keep saying over and over "my Daddy, He will take care of me, He will and He has blessed me with Grant so i have a physical shoulder to cry on as well. It will be okay"
However instead of my heart shattering to the floor when we drive away tomorrow i think it will break silently, and only loud enough for my Heavenly Father and my new husband to hear.
I was never blessed with the gift of saying good bye, my heart is permanently attatched to every person who has ever walked into my life. I have never liked change ask anyone who knows me, im horrible at it.
I know the Lord has placed me here and im so exited to see all He has planned for me but im terrified at the same time.
Grant starts work on Monday....
what do i do with myself....i know packing up all his stuff but whats my place....
im afraid his family will realize im not any good for him, or there was bound to be a better girl (Lori and Donesa i know your probably reading this so welcome to your new sister in law who has enough insecurities for every woman that ever walked the face of the planet...sorry)
Lord i know your breaking me to be the woman you want me to be and i know it's not going to be easy, i want to learn so much and i know you have brought me hear to teach me, to mold me, to strengthen me, and Lord i know you will help me through. Help me to trust you, right now i want to run for the hills crying but you have blessed me so much especially with a new family i have prayed for my whole life. help me to let go, never to forget but to ease the pain of saying good bye. thank you for my new blessings and for a husband who lets me cry and accidently get snottzies on his shoulder. Thank you for being my Daddy and allowing me to cry in Your embrace as well. I love You
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