So being a woman we hands down have the right to be emotional at times, if your a fella reading this suck it up because it's true. Ask any lady :)
Im sitting on the couch after a long day at work, and Grant walks in the door. He takes one look at me and all of a sudden im crying. Out of the blue, never saw it coming.
Sitting on the couch watching a favorite past time, i look over to Grant and say I just think im gonna cry, why? he asks, i reply with the most obvious of aswers "i have no idea" haha and i continue to blubber like an idiot over absolutely nothing for about 15 minutes while Grant sits there rocking me and letting me get snottzies on his shirt. After all it's said and done he looks to me and says "are those snottzies German?"
The most wonderful of all my crazy emotional outbursts lately.... So our friends just had their baby and i have been just so over whelmed with excitement for them lately and me being a girl and Grant being a guy we handle this completely different. lol. We are sitting on the couch last night and im looking on facebook reading all the current posts and it hits me they are sitting at home holding their new baby girl and they are a family now, and i just got so overwhelmed by the fact that one day Lord willing that will be Grant and I. I look over to him and say "honey are you jealous?" Me being me i meant it as can you imagine that one day we could be them, holding our own bundle of joy (i must insert a moment of No, im not pregnant please leave me alone about it, when the Lord wants us to have a baby we will be pregnant there is no need to ask Every month trust us we will let you know. for those wondering minds of course) Grant being Grant and a guy continues writing his paper and responds with nope, not really. then he gets up and gets a glass of water. Im sitting there with this running through my mind "HE DOESNT WANT TO HAVE BABIES!!!!! WWWAAAHHHHH!!!"
haha im so insane lol. this continued into a thirty minute conversation about what are you talking about, i do want to have kids but when the Lord blesses us with one then we will have our own, and so on and so forth clearly meaning where in the world did you get i dont want to have babies just cause i said i wasnt jealous. (I will have to post something later about how men and womens' minds work differently....incredible, a whole other world ladies)
Oh good times in our house. I don't know how He does it. lol.
I swear im not crazy.... at least i dont think so, and with Grant being in applied psych im sure he would at least hint to it if he thought i was losing my mind, well if i had already lost it.
so i here sit wondering why in the world im saying any of this and i guess it all boils down to the fact that... i have no idea. haha. it's my note and i can say randomness if i want. lol.
No really, the real reason, i think, is just that some times we tend to get so overwhelmed and emotional about the craziest things but when was the last time we got overwhelmed by our God? The other day i was sitting at (not on) my wonderful computer screen on my day off and as im putting around i began listening to some music and all of a sudden im sitting there, really listening, not to the instruments, not to their voices, but to the words. "My God is mighty to save", "I will rise on eagles wings, before my God fall on my knees" "How great is our God" and as i was sitting there i was almost certain that my Heavenly Father was standing there right beside me and i have never been so unbelievably overwhelmed by His love in my life. I sat there with tears streaming down my face and the only place i wanted to be was kneeling before His throne, to be there in Glory celebrating, dancing, standing in awe of who He is and EVERYTHING that He has done for me, for us, for my family in just the past couple months, let alone since before time began.
Do you get it? I mean really get it? How AMAZING our God is! I mean He created this insane being (me) because He loved me, He created you (hopefully less insane) because He loves you. When was the last time you just stepped away from the world and sat in the presence of the Almighty? Praised Him for everything He has done in your life? Whether you thought it best or not.
It has been tough being here but in the past few months i have never felt so blessed and so overwhelmed by just how incredible God is, how He truly does have this amazing tapestry spread out for each of us and daily He is putting His plans into motion.
Well duh it's gonna be hard, and of course it's gonna hurt, and more than a few times you will have honest to goodness reasons to cry tears into your Daddys shoulder (and hubby's too if ya have one), but in the grand scheme of it all:
There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead
And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
Live every moment as though you were standing before His throne because in truth we stand before our Great Daddy every moment, in the dark or in the light. No matter where we are right now, the victory is won! How utterly Exciting!! if your not excited about that, something is seriously wrong with you!! Fall on your knees before our God, Praise Him, thank Him, He deserves it! And cry if you need to, He doesn't mind, He bottles them all up and records them in His book, because that's how much He loves us, even your salty water drops are important to Him.
I love yall, and i hope this encouraged some one, if not that's okay cause it was such an awesome reminder just reliving that moment.
Heather- the crazy bride who never minds sharing her confessions of wifey hood with you.
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