Confessions of a powdery cake mix loving Bride :)

it's somewhat amazing that life can feel so different and yet the same all in the same moment.
Things are changing yet they never seem to change until the moment your wake up and it begins to dawn on you....how in the world did i get here....wait, where is here?
That's how I feel somedays. Here in good ole Bemidji nothing ever seems to change yet daily things are evolving and bringing new struggles, victories, and wonderful memories. How in the world do you take it all in?
Grant has been in classes for a month now, and it has gotten a lot better. It was really hard at first realizing he was getting to be a part of something I wasn't. It was this insanely lonely feeling and I cried. Surprise :) Im pretty much over that now that i see his massive box of Hebrew vocabulary cards, and books I can't even pronounce littering our tiny coffee table, and not to mention the cup after cup of coffee slowly replacing his flow of blood with a caffeine pumping insomnia. He's loving it. The Lord has already been working in his heart this year and I love hearing his new discoveries as our Daddy reveals something new to him. It's rather insightful being in love with a college hunny!
Other than my eventful run in with the ER nothing new seems to be changing for me. Thus my entry for the day. Have you ever wanted something so much and it seems it's always out of your grasp. I mean really, that one tiny thing that no matter how hard you push just keeps skipping that centimeter to far. Sometimes I feel that way. My best friend moved to Hungary for a year, and i must admit i was highly jealous, not in a bad way more of an Im-so-excited-our-Daddy-is-doing-something-so-incredible-in-your-life way. And than i began thinking....what is the Lord doing in my life?
Do you ever really stop to think that....I mean mostly we just sit around on a daily basis riding the roller coaster of life with all its ups and downs and im gonna throw up moments and never stop to see the hand and heart of our Savior.
I dont ever want to be that way..... something that has been so exciting lately has been my daily time with the Lord. If you know me at all you know what a struggle it is to be in the word daily...lame i know but it's tough. I have such good intentions and then before i know it, it's midnight and i can't even keep my eyes open. A baby step for me but it feels like leaps!
Oh and another thing....Fall is coming. A plus of living up north for the time being is I get FALL!! Changing leaves, cooler weather (not im gonna die cold yet), and the smell of everything beginning to change. It has to be the most amazing thing ever stepping outside on our balcony and just looking around and seeing all that our Heavenly Father has created, and realizing that He knitted together every aspect, every tiny detail. It's an overwhelming thing.
The Lord is daily providing for us....we were finally able to pay off my Word of Life bill! I know it has been forever but we did it! Praise the Lord for His provision, now im just waiting for my diploma to prove I was there and did it!
And all of that is just the powdery cake mix....not even the good stuff (like all the chocolate parts!). Our God is so amazingly wonderful and gracious to us and more than anything He teaches us. Yeah sometimes it's hard but how rewarding when you take a moment to look back, even if it's just for that one moment your in to realize everything our Father is doing. Dont forget to take those moments, sometimes thats all you need to keep those centimeter skipping grasp escaping things from overwhelming you. And if that doesn't work....let Him know your heart, He already knows it better than you but He loves to hear you come before Him and tell Him all about it.

So tell me....what is He doing in your life?
Love and miss yall!
Heather