Confessions of a silly faced Bride....

So nothing like new adventures! lol.

So as women sometimes we are pretty aware of what we look like (some a little too much)  but many times that is how we define our beauty (not saying its biblical but its true).
Well these past few weeks my face has been feeling kind of different. It all started with this random sickness that wasn't quite a cold but still kind of weird. Well on our mini vacation to Tennessee I sneezed one night and all of a sudden my face got pretty itchy and kind of tender around my eye and nose. A few minutes later i noticed it was pretty puffy. Of course my first reaction was "great i broke my face!". I asked Grant if he saw it and he noticed it a little bit and we decided we would just keep an eye on it. Since then the left side of my nose and under my eye has been a little tender but i assumed i just popped something when i sneezed. We have noticed some swelling and puffiness on a few other occasions as well but thought nothing of it. Wednesday at work i scratched around my eye/nose area and it got really red and puffy.
"Great one of those super annoying under the skin pimples that the whole world can see but everyone diverts there eyes so you dont think they are staring...."(i hate those).
well in a few hours it faded and i thought man that was neat....no pimple after all.
So last night im sitting on the couch watching tv while Grant slipped into a sleep deprived coma on the floor. Well once again my nose felt itchy so common sense i started rubbing it, then i licked my lips...and then i panicked. The whole left side of my lip felt super weird, kind of like i got a numbing shot. after a few minutes of repeatedly licking my lip to make sure i wasn't losing my mind i got up and looked in the mirror. I wish i would have taken a picture.  it looked like i stuck a grape under my lip, the left side of my cheek was swollen and started to feel a little numb. and it all looked a little.. well wrong.  Of course i start checking to make sure i can breathe.....well im not blue so we are good there. Then there was the hunt for a rash cause i was certain that funny tasting peanut i had earlier had something to do with it....wait i eat peanuts all the time and im not dead yet and it has never made me look like a saggy faced cabbage patch before so that can't be it.
Okay insert moment of panic......MY FACE IS JACKED UP (WELL DOWN), I HAVE A BRAIN TUMOR!!
So like every reasonable wife i frantically wake Grant shaking him with no love at all "honey there is something wrong with my face....can you see it, can you see it...look at my lip, can you see it" I was scared....the love thing wasnt the first on my mind lol.
At that point i was torn between give me a benadryl and send me to bed to sleep it off and my face, my face is wrong! We called his sister Lori and shared what was happening and she immediatly recognized the symptoms of Bells Palsy (a viral infection in the muscles of your face, they dont know what causes it but if not treated the symptoms can be permanent). Not a fan of the saggy face category so Grant decided we should go and see the doctor.
Wait a second....enter no health insurance.....i hated the fact i was gonna cause us a huge bill, enter the crying emotional moment.....and Grant deciding my health was more important. And we were off.... all the while my jaw growing numb along the way. I was so afraid i was literally shaking. Amazing how in times of fear we tend to cry out to our Heavenly Father.... Lord im afraid, please calm my fears, help me to know You will provide for this, help me to not panic or cry. Praise our Daddy! He did. I was so nervous when i got there i pretty much shook the whole time (especially when they had Grant stay back to fill out paperwork while i had to go to the scary daunting hospital room with the tiny bed and all those intimidating ear looker inners, and big over head lights....do they know anything about comforting people who are nervous).....anyway when Grant arrived the Dr was right behind him, i retold my sneezing, numb face story for the third time and yep Bell's palsey it is. Let's steal my blood, and never give it back and here are your pills and have a great night! And we were headed home with my first dose of meds and an almost normal face structure. Pretty much back to normal now, You can only tell if you know what your looking for and happen to spend a lot of time memorizing my normal lip structure. they say it can take up to a couple weeks but since i had such a small case it may not even take that long.

So that was my silly faced adventure! Another blessing without insurance just one of my meds (the one i had to have )would have cost up to  $100 at most of the pharmacies in town and the Lord blessed us with a place that only charged $30 for both! Our God is soo faithful!

So our first trip to the ER as a couple was survived! And an even deeper love for my Heavenly Father for being my comfort, and my hubby for loving his swollen faced bride and asking a hundred times if im feeling okay....He loves me....i know!! Im so blessed but i think i could go without that much excitement for a little while lol.

Fun huh? :) and i learned a few valuable lessons along the way....including our Daddy works in wonderful ways to teach us He is faithful sometimes. and oh how I LOVE the fact that my Savior is Faithful and holds my hand when im fearful. What a great God!!

Your Heavenbound Heather